19th December 2009,

I didnt manage to update my blog on the 19 was because I went to my aunty house and before that I went to a mall and the mall is so pretty. Full of Christmas decoration, the best decoration compare to the others. Even they have fake snow. super nice, took some pictures with my cousin. Seriously, I wished that you were there with me instead of Melvin. I miss you so much..
Then we had our early dinner at Japanese restaurant. I love japanese food^^

that very moment, my baby was pissed due to his cousin's bf.He had to leave the service right after the praise and worship. be patient alright dear, If you are not happy just talk to him straight. Dont keep it to yourself, not good^^

then went for window shopping and then head to my cousin's house. However there was a change in plan. she brought us to a place to chill and eat. then only we continue to go my cousin's house. My baby called to check whether I've reached or not and the call was just in time when I just reached! so ngam..:)

When my baby went to bed, I accompanied my elder cousin to play Tom Rider until 2am. Then straight went to bed. Baby, I miss you and I wish you can meet my aunty and cousins. They really are nice people.

20th December 2009,

I woke up early at 7.30am and sat at the sofa, chit chat with my aunty. Then she showed me my cousin's pictures. It was hard for me to ask about what happened so I didnt ask but she suddenly talk about it and I could see her teary eyes until she really cried. I tried my best not to cry and be strong. But I couldnt, I drop few tears and tried my best to hold it. I rubbed away the remaining tears and tried to calm her down. Mother loves, I can see she misses him so much.
He brought so much joy in the family, he is funny, love to tease my aunty and joke around with everyone.

Then we head down to my cousin's grave and I did a little prayer for him. My uncle and aunty talked to him "ateen, Alice is here to visit you" I felt like crying again but I hold it.
After for awhile, we left and had our lunch. Then Melvin and I head to my mom's shop. around that time, my baby was about to go back Penang. I prayed for his safety in my heart. I prayed that God will protect him and guide him through his journey back safely.

I went to JPCC, where Pst Sydney Mohede is. The church somehow like ours, CHC but nothing beat CHC. my own church, I miss going to CHC with you baby. I miss CHC also. I miss the present of God so strong fell in the presence.

Once the Svs done, when I was on the way back. I was so worried that my baby didnt sms me. he was supposed to reach by then. Baby I am so scared to loose you. I love you so much dear.

I hope you have a great time in Penang with your family. I miss you so much..

On the 18th Dec 2009

My mom, Melvin, my mom friend and I went to the beach in Jakarta. I dislike the beach, as it is extremely dirty. I hate Indonesian people for being such an Ignorant asses. Only know how to use but do not even bother to take care the environment. However, we still went. I hate such a bad stomachache then went public toilet. The pain still there until I could not even eat lunch. my mom forced me to eat a little and I did.

We went to take a boat- small tour and took some pictures. Then we walk along the bridge and gosh! I miss my baby extremely bad, really missing him alot. I tried my best to enjoy and took some shot and my mom took some shot of me when I was "daydreaming" thinking of you

At night, we had some arguement and honestly I cried. I feel so bad and worst is I could not do anything, cant even touch him and I tried my best to cheer him up yet still cant. Baby, my heart weaken when I see you were down like yesterday.my whole heart and mind is thinking of you. I think about you more than I think about myself. I know this is sound stupid and impossible but please lets not fight or argue anymore. I cannot take it. I love you baby..

Anyway, here are some of the pictures.

Melvin and the Ladies.

My mom and I

Me standing on a boat

My mom and her friend posing

Thinking about my baby

So that are some of the pictures. ^^ mwakz!

On the 17th December 2009, early in the morning I chat and webcam with my dear. I am so happy and even missing him more and more. I had a great time chatting with him and his cousin.
Then we did our own activities for the day, Melvin and I went to my mom's shop for lunch and we decided to go to another mall in Jakarta. There are so many of them and so far we almost went to all of them. Then we met my cousin and her boyfriend and we went to watch avatar. It was so nice!!!!oh baby, How I wish that I could watch it with you. I was pretty jealous towards my cousin. She hugged her boyfriend while watching the movie and I couldnt. I am too far away from my baby but I know it is only for a short term. Soon I will reunite again with him.:)

anyway, I saw so many spongebob and Patrick mini statue in a mall. I will post the picture when I got the time to transfer them. when I saw Spongebob and Patrick, really reminds me of you dear. my baby love them so much. :)

I was actually just kidding when I asked him to buy me a perfume for Christmas present but he meant it. Baby, I will not lie. I am happy to get a Christmas present from you and I know it is a big step for you. You never bought anyone a present and I am surprised for that. Remember baby, what count is the heart and not the present. The sincerity of the heart.:)

I told you before, It is good to buy your beloved one a gift- even there are no celebration or events. As long as you have the will to give, I am as your girlfriend really am happy. Like I am willing to spend my money to give you surprised for your birthday. I know it may seems nothing but I thought you were looking for that particular thing and Hoping that you will be happy. Even for this Christmas, I am still looking for one present for you. I hope I will find the right one and you will love it.

I love you so much baby. How I wish that I can celebrate Christmas with you. From the deepest of me, I miss you so bad dear.

Today is 16th of December 2009. It is a week and four days I am In Jakarta and I miss my dear more and more. Each day I long to see your face, hear your voice and miss your touch.

Last night we didnt get to see each other from webcam. I was extremely happy, two days ago we webcam and we had a good laugh. oh baby, I truly miss you.

Today, the whole day didnt really do anything. Spent time watch dvds and in the evening. We went to a mall called City Walk. We ate SushiGroove and took some pictures purposely just to show my baby.

Baby, I am so happy to have you as my baby. Anyway, These are my pictures for today, Just to update you on my current condition. I had alot of fun in Jakarta (so far and thank God)

My mom and Mr Snowy~

Me infront of City Walk!!

Me Dancing with Mr Snowy~;p

Dont Think Twice!!Choose Me!=P

Me and Mr Snowyman!!:D

first day of the 2nd week in Jakarta

Happy 10th Months anniversary for being together with you baby!!I was waited for you to call or at least wish me through sms. I almost forgotten and thank God I remembered!

Today, I brought Melvin to go the nearest plaza. He managed to buy shirts and I accompanied him also try my very best to be a good host plus a good friend. Actually, I feel bad that I have no car to bring him around. So in return, I bring him around to shop and watch movie.

It was 4pm or so, I realized that it was our anniversary and I was pretty sad. The one next to me not my dear but Melvin. It is already the 10th months passed just like that. With no celebration and the worst, he was not at by my side.

10 months passed by so quickly and deep down in my heart wish that as time goes by; My relationship with my baby will get stronger and better. We can understand each other much better than before and keep the love strong between the both of us.
My mom said, it is only 10 months. what about years? will you able to keep up this kind of level later on? I just wish for the best and I do love you baby.

I love to hear you laugh, I love to see your smile, I love to look into your eyes that tells me- you love me. Nothing else I can ask from God, He has given me a chance to be someone who loves me and have found Jesus in his life. It is a blessing in my life to have him around.

Ilove you so much baby.

1 week in Jakarta

Today is Monday which make me feel like the first day in Jakarta and feels like on Sunday was the day I am still with you. I read my dear's blog and we thought about the same way. a week yet feels like forever.

Yesterday, I went to Ratu Plaza to fetch Melvin. His bus stopped at that mall which was pretty easy for my mom and I to get him. Once I met him, I am seriously thinking of my baby. I was like, damn! made me feel I am in Malaysia and I am just outside with Melvin and going home to where my baby at. However, I am not. After awhile, My mom finished her gym and met Melvin. I could see the akwardness and in the same time he was trying to be polite while my mom was trying to be a friendly host. After all it is nice to meet a friend.

Baby, I am so glad that I have friend to hang out with! even just for awhile. In this week, we are planning to meet our other college friends who stays in Jakarta. Hope things going to be really exciting!

Baby, I hate it so much to be far from you but in the same time I am glad for this chance. From this I can realise how much you mean to me and most importantly how much I mean to you. Even though my mom always said, It is good that your boyfriend is a good guy but you are still young and dont rush things, dont rush your feelings. I dont care about that, I know nothing last forever but I Love you baby and happy to have you as my baby.

When I heard your voice before I went to bed. Gosh, I miss you so bad. the more you miss me the more I miss you baby. I love you more baby!

I missed out 2 days to blog and also didnt manage to webcam and chat online with my baby. I am blogging right now, 7pm before I was about to leave for wedding dinner. My mom and I were invited to go as well. In case I have no time to blog later, so here I am blogging to share about 2 days ago.



In that two days, nothing much really happened. After I chat online and webcam with my dear, I went to my dad shop and help him the whole day. Then we went to my grandma house and reached around 7.30pm or 8pm. Then I went to buy food with my dad and we ate it together at home with my cousin also. Then I tried to do some bonding with my relatives, my grandma and my aunties. Then I went to bed early. From there I can only sms my dear and he called me once or twice. urgghh..I miss you!!



Then the next day, I woke up really early.6am!! then slack in my room until 7.30am and went to shower. then I got nothing to do and finally around noon 1pm, I could not take it anymore! I told my cousin that I am going with her to her campus. before went to her campus, we dropped by to my qiuKung (my grandma's brother). I was so shocked, when I saw him- He is really so skinny. I finally realised he is having cancer so went for kemoteraphy (forgotten how to spell the word). his side face got burned, I prayed in my heart that God will heal him!! I chit chat with him for awhile and then went off to my cousin campus.



Then waited for her to finish her exam. there was funny incident happened. The lecturer, suspect me and her bf helping one of the student (unidentified though). She took the book with her. lol!

We wen to the campus again on the next day and we Thank God they didnt take her name or else she can kiss goodbye to her result and must repeat the next semester!! I hangout for few hours there and proceed to my mom's shop. After that, I went home and thats when I read my dear's blog. How sweet you are baby, but remember words without action is zero. I love you dearly and I miss you more each day!

4th day in Jakarta

Today is the fourth day I am in Jakarta and I woke up around 9.15am. First thing I remembered was to online msn, I was afraid that he waited for me like yesterday. His msn was still on but there was no replied and I sent him message just to reconfirmed whether he was still asleep or already awoken.

He replied me and we video converence again. I love it. He even waited for me to finish shower.
Today my result is out and my baby helped to check. Thank you dear!
I am pretty happy that I reached my goal of having my cgpa above 3. Although I was pretty disappointed with one or two. well it is okay. Just like what my baby said. B is better than a C. grateful that there is no C.:)

I was at my mom shop until 1.15pm. i was supposed to reach my dad's shop by 1pm but suddenly heavy rain. I was a little wet from the drizzle. I helped my dad, checking some price code and send some items to my uncle shop right one floor below. Today so many people were talking to me and we were joking around. They are the worker in that area. Really nice and friendly.

Then didnt really talk much with my baby as he was about to work. around 5.30pm, my mom and I went to buy stuff to cook. corn soup! yummy!
then I spent my time watching dvd and finally I can talk with my darling in msn and most importantly can see his face!:D
He said I am becoming very sensitive once I reach Jakarta. no I am not, I am just observence thats all! or maybe a little..no idea.xD

hee:D
I love you dear.Sleep tight!

3rd day in Jakarta

Last night, I was hoping to be able to chat online with him but it didnt happen. I was really sad that I didnt hold my promise to my dear. He called me and was somehow a little bit happy. He was not mad but he understood my situation. I love it whenever I heard him talking in that way, full of understanding and my heart feels less burden. After we ended our conversation and I remembered that he told me he was going to sleep right after talking to me. So I decided to do the same and went to bed. I was over exhausted and woke up rather late. I jumped out of the bed and quickly online msn. There was he! man! I am so happy to see him talking to me right after I online.

Again we saw each other through webcam. Baby I miss you even more. I miss your presence. I miss your lame joke. I miss your hugs. I miss your cooking. I miss you!

The whole day, I spent my time watching animes and unpack unwanted clothes. Then he called me, I am always looking forward to his call and I miss his voice. Right now, while blogging, I am chating with him and this time he is rather quiet than yesterday. He told me that he is really tired but he still wants to wait for me to finish blogging.

I love you baby:)

2nd days in Jakarta

Today is the second day I am in Jakarta yet my mind is till thinking of my baby. Yesterday when I was still in KL. He told me that it is not as if we are going to break up and you are going back for holiday, so why have to cry? those words gave me strengh even just for awhile.

However, whenever I am in his arm and whenever he hug me, I felt so comfy and the feeling was just so nice. I couldnt stop myself to and let my tears out.



My heart soften whenever I heard him say I love you and throughout the day at home and in airport. Having him at by my side, I am more than happy and when he hugged me for the last moment before I left. I just wish time could stop. I cried and I cried all the way up the airplane.



We never part, even just a day for almost 10 months. we know each other ugly side and tend to get pissed at each other and also treated coldly. BUT, when I was about to leave. that was the moment, where I just want him to be by my side and wants to treasure every single moment.



at that moment, it made me realise that I want to have a better relationship with him and stay close to him. I dont care if he say that I am being manja but I prefer that than being cold to each other.



Today is a nightmare to me, I hate to live a life full of fear and pretend. I really want to fix my relationship with my dad. I would do anything but today made me think that it is useless.

He scolded me just because I miscalculated the amount of money. I dislike the way he talk. so sharp and hurt me so bad. Until made me think, IF only I got money. I wont even bother to ask and try to please him so much. I tried my very best to care and yet still useless.

Then my baby, he tried to cheer me up. Thank you dear and I miss you so bad.