Wednesday, March 29, 2006

it has been a month i didnt blogging!
actually there's alot of things that i wanna type in...but my usual bad habit which is lazy. cant deny it.~,~

oh well...as i said lots of things had happend for the past 1 month...
wanna share it all but i guess i cant really remember all.
in simple words,i shall summary it.

after my friend left Singapore,i get more busy than before.
first of all..i went for spelling bee competition.It was fun and ofcourse i had a tough time too!my cellgroup member,meiling, she helped me out alots.She test me how to spell the words which i have not learn yet.in 4 hours before the competition start, i manage to spell about 100 new words.however,i guess that was the limit i could memorise..my felt like throw up..as if my brain couldnt contain more words.
finally the competition start.im happy with the first word that being tested.the word which was already on my finger tip.
i had another tough time.i couldnt really understand the speaker's spelling, so much different.one and for most i had no time to figure it out the words as i only had enough time to write.
i had tried my best and i realised its not as easy as i think.
the result should be out by now..if i am able to pass and go for the next round,its great! but...really...if i am not qualified for the next round, im even happier! i have to memorise the same 500 words and add 300 new words..total is 800 words..no way im going to toture my brain again...T.T
overall i learn new words..such as 'kiester'
haha...

well another great news is that i have started serving in childern church!finally! yay!!^0^
God's calling is here.
last saturday was my first day serving.it was great.
the kids are cute.Some are naughty though.
i hope i will grow more through in this ministry.
Set a good example to the kids.Show them How great my God is!
nothing is impossible.i know i can change their hearts!

i have been waited for this time to come.I want to be useful..
i want to do well for Him.
the time for me to spend more time serving God,
to be used by God in many ways.
God has change me once again and i realise i keep on trying to do well for God by my own strength..i toture myself when it turn out bad.
i felt down because of it.
i finally realise that i get myself busy until i have no time to spend with Him. i thought the things with what im doing will satisfy Him but i was wrong.
i will not impress him by getting myself so busy.
infact the more i get busy,it drew me away from Him.
busy is 'being under satan yard'
He wants me to put down all the burden into His hand and the most important is available myself for Him.
trust everything unto him.
spend my time fellowship with Him and wait for His words.

He will use me more.
i know He loves me..
He brings light to me when im in the darkness.
He pull my hands and lead me to the right way when i lost my way.
He protect the people i love and He protect me.
I believe in Him more than myself
i know and i know that He has great plan for me.
i want to grow more and more. This is the thing that i really wants.
to be recognised by Him.
i want to tell everyone how great my God is.^^