Warrior Of God

I woke up in the middle of the night, it was exactly 3am. i was wandering why..
I do not really bother why and what is the actual reason for me to wake up in the middle of the night. I told myself to go back sleep..but i just couldnt.
i was thinking hard..why..was it because i have too much problems that is still not yet solve.. or was it because im hungry out of a sudden or i had enough sleep..
it wasnt bcause im hungry and it wasnt because i had enough sleep.
maybe it was bcause i got some relation and friends problems..i dont know..
small little voice within me said do a prayer..seek God..worship Him..
well..i did it...woke up..
i took my bible and my notebook where i noted all great messages..
i closed my eyes and felt nothing but emptyness...
i focused myself..starting to sing a love song to God.slowly i entered God's presence.
the more confidence i sang the song..i pray in tongue...seekin for God..
my mind was "blank" nt really know what am i supose to pray at that moment..
but i just closed my eyes and prayed...i could hear the small voice in me.
i always love to be in the presence of God..really strange..im nt the person that fanatic but i do admit i love to be in the presence of God..
but at that moment i realised something..
I hardly do a quiet time in my room..it was because i will surely fall asleep..i hardly could get God presence.. but that time was different..a total different.
my room was a total silence..i sang the song by myself in my heart..but i did it..

i said to myself..
why i always got into problems..especially when i already forgive them..the problem somehow it just cant stop...i know this is life..full of problems...but why again and again..is it because i still cant forgive them or something?why??what?????
God said to me "right here right now you will start and pray to fight the strong evil"..i didnt question myself but i just followed and i just did it..
i read the old msg that i wrote it down on the 7.03.2004
i read a sentence says " when u nvr be honest to yourself you will never change say in your heart i forgive myself and everyone"
i opened Eph 6:13-18,24
it says
13"therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may withstand in the evil day, and having done all to stand"14"stand therefore,having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breasplate of righteousness."15"and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace16" with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one.
17" take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the spirit which is the word of God
18 praying always with all prayer and supplication in the spirit."
24 Grace be with all hose who love our Lord Jesus in sincerity"

i realise 1 thing that with the armor of God..i will be strong spiritually...
1.live with truth
2.righteousness
3.preparation of the gospel
4.shield of faith
5.helmet of salvation
6.sword of the spirit which is the word of God!
when i learn that by heart...im sure my knowledge will be grow and i can think more in positive way and solve the problems i always think that is imposibble to solve!and above all im sure i will have my breakthrough!!do work according to the word of God!
be truth to God and you shall be given wisdom and shall fight the evil together with God!
with all that 1 cor 16:13-14 and 9
verse 13 says watch stand fast in the faith be brave be strong,let all that you do be done with love. and verse 9 says" For a great and effective door has openned to me,and there are many adversaries."
thanks Lord...i can feel i grow near u more and more!halelujah!!!=)
i do believe that God loves me cuz He wants me to move on..he wants me to be happy..he forgives my sins and he provide me with all the things i need..love and care..
thanks to my Father..im now live freely..no more trap in the the dark and coldness..
bcause one thing..i do want to fight!therefore my Father is also move with me!i may be just a girl..i may be weak but im still a warrior in God's eye!He will fight together with me..
its not only for me...everyone too...as long as your faith towards God is stronger than anything else...in God's eyes u are also the warrior!He loves everyone..:)
LOVE YOU LORD!!

Truth

It's amazing and incredible,
But it's as true as it can be.
God loves and understands us all,
And that means you and me.
His grace is all-sufficient,
For both the young and old,
For the lonely and the timid,
For the brash and for the bold.
His love knows no exceptions,
So never feel excluded.
No matter who or what you are,
Your name has been included.
And no matter what your past has been,
Trust God to understand.
And no matter what your problem is,
Just place it in His Hand.
For in all of our unloveliness,
This great God loves us still.
He loved us since the world began,
And what's more, He always will!

yay~Happy Day~ 

~after cut the cake~ 

Me~~>.<~~ 

~~My Birthday Cake~surprise From Rosita!!>.< 

~Me And RoSita~=) 

~Present From molly (bear) and Rosita (full of penguin)~:D 

^Molly and RosIta^ 

*Present From MoLLY* 

~~MolLY~~ 

~Lidya and me Again~ in da Steakhouse 

~present From Lidya~ 

~Lidya and Me~:D 

Me~in the taxi..=p goin cineleisure..nice?:D 

present from Cg~yellow jacket~CoOL~ 

Me in da train after Cg~ 

bday cake from Cg..small but precious and delicious..:D 

HaPPy BirtHdAY,,
HaPPy BirTHDaY,,
HaPPy BiRThdAy,,
HaPPY BirTHdaY,,,,
To YouUUU.....

that's the words that still in my mind...
16 years long im in this earth...
full of great and sad memories.....lots of obsticles and happiness....
but i fight for the best...and im here...live in great life..having a nice family, great friends..and ofcourse Jesus..
i was just as usuall..feeling the same when knowing my birthday is coming soon...
however..unexpected things happen..the sweetest moment in the important day..

everything started after the church service was over..i was with patricia..walked to the atribute bookshop and take a look on cute cards..
then we walked to the riverra(church park)..then out of asudden i heard yihao shouted from a far and asked me to accompany him to go to atribute bookshop..then i follow him...i wasnt know that was just a planned..back there..they were preparing a suprise for me..
i was really touch..really happy..have the great feeling that couldnt be describe by words..theygave me some obsticles that i have to face before i get to see the present..full of weird questions..especially the clue "handsome"haha..
cute small chocolate cake and a present (hemmmm....) its a jacket!!!!>.<>
i went back home..felt so happy..until i left my jacket and the cards...=p

i was so happy..my frens sent bday msg to me during midnight..i was so excited..until i hardly sleep..:D i talked with my panda on the phone..shared things that happened in church..really happy he wished me happy birthday and b4 we ended our conversation he sang a birthday song..although he rather shy..hahaha....=p thanks ya.!
in da morning..i woke very early..i spent my time playing com games..hehe...till 5+
i was late again!!i took a nap and overslept..
however..im the latest but i reached at cinelesure the earliest...:D
i finally met my frends...lidya and molly..they gave sweet presents..lidya gave me a necklace..and molly gave me a bear(doll):D
we went too phin steakhouse..a place where my fren work...really did suprise him..haha...
then met with my other fren name rosita..we ate and chat too..
rosita left for awhile..she said shes meeting her frens..then she was back..wanted to leave the restaurant..but she asked me to stay a little while..she said she was so tired..suddenly...i saw a waiter came towards our table while carrying a medium size cake with the candle lighted and birthday words..
i was soooo shocked..they sang me a birthday song..i was
touched and almost cried..all the people there looked at us..it was really sweet...i wasnt believe with what i saw..a birthday cake..>.<>
really enjoyed myself there..we went to photo studio..the 4 of us..took pictures..:D
then finally we went watch movie and went back home safely..

Deeply..i really thank God..really thank Him...He really blessed my day..
totally smooth..filled with joy and excitement...especially happiness..i really realise that im such a blessed person..i really does realise deeply that many people arond me that they truly care bout me,love me and treasure me..
really no other things i want other than this moment..a special moment where i can be with the person i love..that is everyone...
as a small daughter of my Father...i really does proud and glad that I found Him..really does have relation with the Lord..proudly to say that My LORD is a GOOD God!!!
i really wish i can understand my Lord even more..to have his trust fully in me..because He is my Father and my greatest fren...
and live with peace and love..without making any mistake that can hurt people anymore..
wish that no one will hate me:D
have a great result on my studies and make my parents,frens and my lord proud..
=) to glory His name..i give Him everything in me..my soul and my life..as in exchange to get Him..to have His care and love..=D

THANKS EVERYONE!!!!!!!!

Jokes For The Day!

SATANIC STARBUCKS

A man died and went to straight down to hell. The devil greeted him and gave him a guided tour of the place. He told the man that there were three rooms he could chose from in which to spend eternity.

The first room was full of flames so hot the man couldn't even breathe. He told the devil that there was no way he was choosing that room. So they moved on.
The next room they came to was full of people who were being beaten and tortured. It looked so painful the man could not watch. He told the devil he definitely didn't want that room, and they moved on.

The last room they came to was full of people who were just sitting around drinking coffee and relaxing. The only thing was that they were standing around in about two feet of poop. The man looked for a while and then told the devil this room would be all right.
The devil gestured for him to sit down and the man took a seat. He did, sipped his coffee and felt really pleased with his choice. After a few minutes, a voice came over the loudspeaker and said, "Break time is over! Back on your heads!"

my bro and my mom~ 

Me and my mom~PEAce~~:D 

Me~~:D at Mcd!!14.08.05 

my mom and i~14.08.05 

heeeeee...:D my lovely mom!~~ 

Mother's Love

on saturday..which was yesterday..my mom came from Jakarta.
a few days back..my heart was just normal when i heard the news that she's coming to see
my brother and I..Maybe it is because we were get used to stay alone without parents presence and love.however it was yesterday,a few hours of her arriving to singapore..my heart was beating so hard and filled with excitement and joy..i was very impatient to see my mom..
when finally she's appeared, i saw her jumping with joy and big smile.really shows that she's extremely overjoyed to see me.
i was with my relative..and he was kinda a little bit shocked when seeing us clad in the same colour which was pink..he thought that we were planning to wear the same colour..but he was wrong...maybe the same feeling yeah?haha..daughter like mother..=p or vice versa?hehe...

we went for our tea break..actually nt really a tea break..we did eat some food..
when we reached my house..my mom met my guardian,and she said,"if u need room,you can use the empty room." definitely we use it. the room is just beside my room..
my brother didnt know that she was coming.we gave him a big surprise..it is because today is his BIRTHDAY!yay~~
we went out again for supper with my other relatives(actually i ate alot too)
while on the way every journeymy mom and i talked all the times..my auncle said u guys got lots of things to share yeah...hahaha...yes it is..definitely..^0^
back from our supper..i went to study my geography-______-!
yes i did study..feeling good..hehe...
Today is another fresh day..i slept with my mom..felt like before,like i was in jakarta..
she pempered me alot which make me felt so greatful..>.<~

Thanks to God for giving me such a good,understanding and especially loving..
she knows everything that happened in my life..every single things.from studies,relationships and friends and also how many piercing i have..she even said,"it is okay,enjoy ur youth as much as you can!"
today i will bring her out to all kind of places, and definitely to have fun!
thanks Lord

Thankful

I started my day with a simple things..however i truly thank God that my mood was alrite and my surrounding too..my day in school overall is not bad..i didnt get any problems or difficulties with teachers or friends..i was glad:)

the same thing at home..i was thankful too that i got a couple of hours to take a nap or Sleep before i get to go for Cellgroup.I didnt want to look so tired in Cg..i want to giv my best shot..my wholely excitement and joy as in Cg i could meet all of my deariest friends and especially Jesus..My God..:)
one thing that was still hanging in my mind was bout my past (relation) thingy..

then in cg..thanks again to God that i was really given time to play game called
"jesus love..." it was so exciting and the most important was every1 laughing..=D
then sis klessis my dear Cellgroup leader giv a message on
"Forget Not All His benefits"
although i wasnt weep at all..but one thing im sure is that the msg really powerful cuz i could feel peace on my heart and i saw some of em were weeping..
in the bible psalm 103:1-5..
1)bless the holy name
2)forget not all this benefits

and things that really touches my heart when she said
2 things that we and I need to forget:
1)sorrows and pass failure
2) PAST HURTS AND LET DOWN
she remains me again for real this time that How good God hass been to me..
i will always start to tell myself that forget and forgive so that i may experience a greater love than before..i wont be lonely because i know i have my God my Father..
all of those cant be describe by words..but through experiences...i can feel it that slowly God really mold my characters and change me..bring me to another higher level and ofcourse i will still remember the first love i have for God:)
I realised that i thank God many times cuz He is indeed deserved to be thank and praise because he for real give all those and made things possible from impossible in my life therefore im proud to say Thank u:)

A mirror is only as good As the reflection in it.
Worry enough to anticipate trouble But not so much as to bring it about.
Look back to where you have been For a clue to where you are going.
Melt the icy fingers of fear With the sunshine of hope.
Step by gentle step, You can overcome the greatest sorrow.
The sweetest grapes Are picked from the vineyard of friendship.
Find something you truly believe in, And everything else will have meaning as well.

sometimes life is will never be so fair...when you think your friends are always there.. the years you think will be the best fun and games..you never rest you’re all together side by side..they always helped you when you cried.. It’s hard to see,
but very clear It’s like a crystal, like a tear you see them now in memories
the way they laugh and speak and tease, but in your heart you’ll always know they are by your side..they’ll never go..so therefore be thankful..=)