Shilla performing-Agnes Monica's song

Sarah's Husband family!

the ending of the show

Shila(the contestant) me and vinny

Kelvin~Vinny~Me and Sarah (the contestant)

Friends with angmo?haha..

Nadia and ME in bus

Me stand up tall!haha

suicidal after event?haha..

Experiencing~

Right after Chinese new year was over, I went back to my home sweet home in KL.
Since then i get busy with my assignments. piles of works to do and mostly the submition due date is very near to one another. I was feeling rather stress. I felt the pressure.
In fact, i am feeling rather scared that i wont be able to do my assignment nicely.
starti from next week, i am having a mid-term exams and seriously i am nervous.
I am afraid that I am not ready to sit for the papers and i am afraid that i cant finish studying everything.

My mind is filled with fear, full of questions of "what if".

putting aside the stressness, yesterday my college organized a trip for us the communication students to go to 8 Tv, which is a Tv station.
It was awesome! not only took lots of pictures. I've gain many benefits.
I received the previllage to be able to see how the producer of the "one in a million" set up everything. from the stage arrangement, the audiences seats, the cameras and she showed us the control room. where they monitor and control the image and the sound systems.

It was really one life time experience!
not only to be able to listen of what the producer's explaination, we were able to get the chance to be seated on the audience's posision! we were able to learn on how the whole event went.!

This is the industry that someday i might be in. the kind of place where communication students will be placed.

I had fun! i was extremely happy because the bond of friendship between me and my friends are getting stronger! ^^

Me DurIng ChIneSe New Year>.<

Tired of waiting...yawwnn...

SiutIng and ME...

CHINESE NEW YEAR 2008

in the new year of 2008, I am glad to say that i experiencing alot of new things..

from starting a new semester, getting to know lots of new friends from the new semester 1 january intake and I've never thought that celebrating Chinese new year together with my friend's family (siu Ting) totally such a pleasure and a memorable experience.

Everyone in the house busy to clean their house and everyone has their own part to do.

from sweeping and mopping the floor, retidy their closet, clean the table and chairs, and decorating the house. I was there totally amazed by their energetic spirit and ofcourse i took part in it, not much though..I bath and walk the dogs. I was only allowed to have fun since i am the guess. They expected just to have fun. ofcourse i did!

this family is indeed very unique..the youngest family visit the elder..

example: my friend's daddy is the 2nd eldest therefore his younger sibling's family has to go over his place and after that everyone went over to the eldest brother's house. After that everyone went over to the grandfather house. Unlike my family, everyone gather and celebrate at my grandma house.Wishing one another happy chinese new year and those who are married will give the childern as well as the unmarried family a red packet filled with certain amount of money. That's our traditional way of celebrating Chinese New year.

I was a little shy not because i wasnt part of the family but it's because I could not really communicate with them. I was quite ashame of myself, I am a Chinese but I cant speak like one.

The most remakable memory was the part where everyone was gambling. from the eldest to the youngest! they elder grandchild's were playing mahjong and the rest were playing card.

I was amused by the freedom that they childern gain from the family.

In my family we are not allowed to gamble. not even gamble with a fake money. Infact we are advised not to play card at all. whereas SiuTing's family, they are good at it. They play with real money, from the minimum amount of 1RM to the maximum (not compulsory).

It was quite funny because I am older compare to the most of them yet i dont know how to gamble at all. I wasnt embarrased at all!

I really had fun.. Even though this is not the first time i celebrate chinese new year without my family but still this is one of the most unforgetable experience in my life. I wont forget this family. Such a kind and loving family.

ORIENTATION DAY

on the 24th..was the day of the orientation day for the new kids..the new intake of tHIs year...

as a mentor..i am expected to join the party..not really a must..but then i just wanna be a part..i wanna enjoy the day with my mentees..

even though the party was really bad...= suck?

but i am glad...i get to know lots of new people...lots of nice juniors? especially the boys...

not saying it becoz i am such a flirt or a bimbo..

but they are real nice...

I learnt alot today...i get to find out their personalities...

they are so out-going..fun people...even though they are sm0king, drink, and say a few vulgarities..

but that were all just the out looked appearance..

they are such a gentle and nice guys....

we went to hang out after the party.......

they bought some alcohol drInk but ofcourse they didnt allow me to drink..

since I had drank 1 whole big bottle...they know i wasnt drunk..

but they were just care about me..was trying to prevent me to get drunk...

we were talking about many tHIngs..shared a few tHIngs..

i listened well.....i had nothing to say.....just nothing to say..

what ever the conversations...it really teaches me something.....it really made me thInk alot...

what ever they had said..were all true.....

I've really nothing to say.......I dont wanna say anything wrong and do any thing wrong anymore..

like what julius said...last year was enough...enough of being emo...

tHis year is "emo free"

I wanna be smth like that too..............

I just wanna be me...be the normal me.......

anyway......today was great...really there were alot of things that is worth to learn...

Thank God for letting me to learn...................

I am so tired now...time to tuck in...good nite.

LATE!

today 21.01.2008 is going to end very soon...in a couple of hours...today is going to become yesterday...Last night i spent my time..w0rShiping God...i Felt strongly God's present..i cried....
because I really misses the moment like that..

tHis morning..i w0ke up late...=/
RusHed thRough the door and walked pass through many people..Hoping that i wouldnt be extremely late...

today is really disappointing...not only late..i missed a quiz wHich contain of 5 extra points..
I told myself...i could not continue to be late any more... i have to change my planner...i have to make sure that i will really wake up early and go to college on time...
i dont want to be somebody who is irresponsible...

Each day i learn new lesson.....Sometimes i am really afraid that i will not be able to follow up...

i am just afraid...

im stucked in between...God please show me the way...the best way for me to go...i need guidence from You...

Dear God..

im doing the blog right before i am going to bed..

thanks to my housemate..i am able to listen to the worsHIp song..the song that has touched my heart before..the song that makes my heart melts..

i kept on listening to it..tHInking...that...i've been searchIng...High and low..

thinKing and hOping that what ever i do..My heart will be a place that You wanna be...a Home for You..

No matter how hard the problem i am facing..no matter how sad it can be..no matter how lonely at times it can be..I've always being reminded..that i've being given the life..a special life from God..this is supposed to be the greatest gift that i've ever recieved..and i am going to treasure every moments i have...

At times..i might be a naughty girl...who is very playful..going round and round...Rebel?

wh0 at times disobey His words..But with all My heart...I am doing my best not to let go of Him once more..

Since i did it once before..not only promised to My first Cell Group leader..i promised to myself...

I'll never let Go of God...no matter how hard..I will not leave..

I am always will be a good girl..being humble..to be the best girl in God's eyes..

I am tHankful for everything..all i ever wanted is to feel His presence..to hear His words..

that's what i want..without Those..I feel so empty..useless..His Blessing is a bonus..

I am walking straight to His promise land..even though sometimes i am unable to hear Him..im still walking straight..till i get BacK..I surrender everytHIng unto You Lord..

I surrender the whole of me...my Family..my Future...my career...my Health...my HEart..my love..My soulmate..Let your Will be done..by faith I follow You every step of my way...Show me the vision..who will be the one who is able to guide me in spiritual walk each day...

Who will put You First..and Teach me to always put You first...

Friday

wondering why did i put the word friday as the title?

there's only 1 reason behind it. as a memorial.

still wondering why?

let me elaborate it. starting of the 2nd semester (which is now). Every friday, i do not have any classes to attend.

It is a good news since last semester i had to attend 1 class every friday morning.Yesterday was the first friday of this 2nd semester.

Many things had happened. sad and happy things.

failure in 1 relationship, heartache grew within my frend's heart. I could not really do anything about it. All i can do is to cheer her up, give moral support and pray for her. I hope she will be fine. Feel no more pain but to gain happiness.

Other than that, i did all the important things to do.

I've completed 3 important tasks to do

firstly to pay my housemate for the internet bills, secondly transfer deposit and to check on the utilities bills at myplace.

other than that i went to play at arcade and watch cinema.

I had a real good time.

Besides having fun..i have to make sure that my laudries are not abandon.

balance up the studying and playing hours. Learn how to manage my own schedule properly.

not to forget to have enough rest every night.

I am in the sleeping mode now. tat's why i am not so sure what i am supposed to write.

However the point is I am glad to have something to learn.

New Update about me

guess who's bacK? Me! haha...
I've abandoned my blog around 8 months long..too many spyder web here?
hopefully not!haha..

well,8 months long...many things had happened...
from where i was extremely lost..i had no direction in life...i thought everything's gonna end just like that.No dream no future.
But I kept on persevere...PUSH- Persevere Until Success Happen
and Thank God..He gave me away..he will always be...even though at times i felt so empty..i felt so useless..but God never stop to guide me..
Im really thankful for that..

im so in love with Mass Communication since i was in secondary school..
I guess that was when i figured out I had the ability..easily to know people..speak up well..loud..daring? loved to try something new and i loved to lead people..to help people..
However things were just so difficult back then..too competitive..
i kept on comparing with others..more to what i could do and what they could do..it seriously pulled down the courage..
there were about 6 of us..who had the same goal..we were wanting to be a mass comm students..i thought it was just so IMPOSSIBLE..

but then believe it or not...right now i am a MASS COMM student!
I further my studies and entered Taylors College, last year 2007 July intake..
I've overcome the first obstacle..i am glad of it..
now i am already in the semester 2..facing a higher level of obstacle..
Learn the introduction of PR .. Journalism..Advertising..about a company..
everyday..i keep on learning..to be better..to improve myself..
especially in writting..i want to be good in both speaking and a writting
I will keep moving forward...no matter how hard..i will keep on trying..
As long as i've given the chance to do it..I will do it..as long as i am able to achieve my goal...to discover another vision and dream..

Another thing I really want to Thank God is that..He has shown me a great place to study..full of nice new people who helps and loved me alot..a good place to learn..

Im thankful ...deep down in my heart..i really do...:)

BORING

i bet i become real forgetful huh...i forget my blog password again..~.~
but fortunately i am able to log in..><
if not say a real GOOD BYE...haha................

alrite...today....i really have nothing much to do......
since sunday till now i have been staying at my mom's house...
wohoo...totally relaxing aye....eat well and ofcourse sleep VERY well..haha...

i bet right at this moment...everybody is busy with their own stuff..school,doing projects,working at their office...how about me? hmm....as usual..im still waiting for my Uni to start soon...have to wait for another 1-2 more months...honestly it is boring..but somehow im also hoping that time wont move so quickly....coz im gonna miss these people over here..T.T

Sometimes i wonder will i able to adapt in the new place...
totally new for me...and i really have to readapt from 0..
all i can say NEW ADVANTURE~^0^
new country,new home for at least 4 years,new faces,
new foods(i dont really bother about this),new places,new school,
new topic of the course...wont be sciences,Accounting,Social studies,MT and Geography..
hmmmmmmmmmmmm.............interesting isnt it.......

well................................................
=.='' i dont really know what to share already.....
hmmmm......alrite lets talk about today......
as usual...im gonna do something....like cleaning,watching,eat,bath,washing plates,water the flowers....i bet it will be enough for the day huh...~.~